It's a Labyrinth

From the holy cow shit; I learned about regret. The colour of regret is dark and gloomy. I felt like I always want to go back to where it begin, and I wish I could turn back time. I was stuck in an eternal emptyness, there was only space. Time is undefined, no begining, no end. Never move on, always go round and round at the same spot, the same story, the same people. And I realized, this is death. I learned about trust. Is there anything, just anything that or anyone who could save me from eternal emptyness? I just don't want to be here any longer. How can I keep myself alive within eternal emptyness? I need faith! I need to trust something, I need to believe in something, something that I can hold on to. Someone whom I can trust. Someone who can lead me back home, to where it begin. Out there, can not be trusted. I need to believe. I need faith. Lead me to the faith. And I found faith, it was so bright. Beautiful. I learned about be in the present. When you are in an eternal empt...

Bahasa Inggrisnya bagus sekali, dalam bentuk tulisan. Ketika berbicara di dunia maya, isi pikirannya mengalir tanpa hambatan. Very attractive! I thought. Setelah sekian lama bertukar pikiran lewat dunia maya, dan "sedikit" membuntuti profile account nya hampir disetiap kesempatan, kami memutuskan untuk merasa tertarik satu sama lain. Kira-kira sudah lebih dari setahun lamanya, kami saling memelihara pikiran tentang satu sama lain. Saling berbagi, secara sehat, karena hanya berbagi pikiran dan perasaan. Saya mulai berfikir, ah....ini mungkin yang saya tunggu-tunggu. Dia menyukai saya tanpa ada kedekatan  fisik, dia menyukai opini-opini saya, dia punya ketertarikan akan hal yang sama, dan kami memandang sesuatu dari kacamata yang sama. Suatu hari kami sepakat untuk bertemu di salah satu belahan dunia realita. Pikiran saya mulai melayang, jantung berdegup, rasanya seperti hendak bersiap-siap ke medan peperangan yang sesungguhnya setelah simulasi dan stimulasi selama setah...